And those who know Your name put their trust in You, for You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You. Psalm 9:10
Do you know that book Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day? Well, I’ve kind of had a terrible, no good very bad series of months. Most of it has centered around health. The rest of it has had to do with some bitter conflicts that have gotten rugged and too close to home. That’s supposed to be my safety zone.
As for my health things, a year and a half ago while playing pickleball, my partner at the time came charging up from the back court and rammed into my back left shoulder blade. (For some unknown reason.) It was quite jarring and the immediate effect was that it bruised my rib cage, hurting for a couple of months. But since this last March, my left shoulder began going out of joint each time I played, which was two times a week.
This summer I played more, and in early August, that was one too many times, tearing my rotator cuff enough to end pickleball and pretty much sleep and productive anything. Then I found out I have cataracts, of which I think I’m way too young to get. So I had to wait until my deductible year rolled over to get those two things taken care of.
But then over a month ago, I started to get some other strange symptoms having to do with my brain. That included spinal fluid draining (the doc told me at the time it was just a bloody nose) from my nose, my eyes swelling shut with furrows across my forehead (seasonal allergies, same doc), then it began to hurt when I walked deep inside my core. Each of those symptoms got talked away by the doctors I saw.
But then I got grooves on top of my head going from the top of my head to my forehead, which I thought was really odd. But I was way too busy at work to attend to. But I kept getting really bad headaches, ringing in my ears and it hurt more and more to walk. So I finally went to the clinic and they said my grooves were because my brain had swollen. That began a series of tests that have not shown what is wrong. Still it hurts more and more to walk, I wake up every 2-3 hours with a banging head and down my back, and my shoulder continues to hurt.
I suspect that it is Lyme’s disease from a tick that has worked its way from my bloodstream to my cerebral spinal fluid. I did a lot of berry picking this July in the deep thicket. I live in a rural area and to get into a neurologist is apparently a difficult thing. Even though I have gone to an ER twice to try to get help, this has not produced action. My help is from the Lord!
Now, with all of that said, the long introduction, I have been turning to the Psalms. What I want to share are verses that have been my anchors. This has not been easy. No one said it would be. But if I say that I know God and trust Him, then this is where the rubber meets the road. These verses have been my anchor when the ground is shaking underneath my feet. Maybe they will speak to you in whatever circumstances you are in. They are in the New Living Translation.
He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways. Psalm 91:11
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? Psalm 27:1
The steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him. Psalm 103:17
God makes His people strong. God gives His people peace. Psalm 29:11
Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you and you shall glorify Me. Psalm 50:15
It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. Psalm 18:32
God keeps an eye on His friends, His ears pick up every moan and groan. Psalm 34:15
The Lord is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalm 16:8
Give your burden to the Lord, and He will take care of you. Psalm 55:22
Those who know Your name will put their trust in You; for You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You. Psalm 9:10